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Matriarchy versus Patriarchy (5)

I have often theorised about what really motivates Catholic priests, Catholic monks and Catholic laity.

I could see the shadows on the wall of what they were about and their secret rituals and practices. But they were unlikely to commit their dirty deeds to print.

Then I came across an academic report of Catholic clerical transgenerational abuse in Australia, confirmed by other similar Australian reports.

An exploration of the existence of clergy child sexual abuse Dark Networks within the Catholic Church.

Signed 17th September 2019.

By Sally Muytjens BJus(Hons). Doctor of Philosophy. School of Justice. Faculty of Law, Queensland University of Technology

This proves conclusively that priests form organised paedophile rings and sexually abuse children over generations. Needless to say, neither the Catholic Church nor the media has shown any interest in the report, so children are still in danger today.

But this is what I said in my post, dated January 2021, four years ago, introducing this report:

I’ve had to reflect on the abusers’ motives and what they told me at the time, imperfectly and only partly remembered a lifetime later. They seem to have a belief system, a credo. They do not form part of an organised Dark Network just to find an outlet for their depravity. There is an excuse, a rationale, a logic, a reasoning, a twisted theology behind their crimes. This ‘justifies’ their crimes.

It’s rather more than a depraved priest excusing his conduct with some pseudo-spiritual nonsense as he abuses a child. And it’s rather less than some elaborate, conspiratorial, esoteric, Masonic belief system. Although it has elements of both. The Knights, for example, were a self-acknowledged, secret, three degrees, quasi-Masonic organisation until the end of the 1960s with theatrical, frightening and psychologically dubious ceremonies, which are available for study.

My conclusion is that at the heart of organised Catholic abuse seems to be Clericalism, the pursuit of power and a pathological hatred of the flesh.

Academics and reporters who put Catholic abuse down to the frustrations of celibacy, immature or traumatised priests, the oppressive structure of the Church etc, are deliberately going down a useful detour, a calculated cul- de-sac to distract us from the reality.

‘If we can just get the celibacy/screening/structure right, everything will be fine in the Church in the future.’

It’s a classic, questionable academic technique which I’m very familiar with from my studies of academia in other areas. The academic technique employs that well-tried and successful ploy: ‘Don’t look over here – look over there.’

The authors responsible know it’s a detour, but desperately need to believe the Church can’t be all bad and so blind themselves to or filter the truth. Given that they must surely be aware of at least some aspects of the truth presented here, that I discovered relatively easily, that’s a rather gentle explanation for their conduct and why they have turned a blind eye. There are other explanations.

Fuelling their mindset, consciously or unconsciously, is the ongoing premise, which is also the core motivation of the Knights: ‘The Church’s good name must be protected at all costs.’

These individuals are the loyal opposition whose books, studies and enquiries gives the fake impression to the general public that something is finally being done about the Catholic Church.

It is not.

The key line in my post above is ‘There is an excuse, a rationale, a logic, a reasoning, a twisted theology behind their crimes.’

Back in December, I came across another academic’s revelation and confirmation of this twisted theology.

It falls into two sections.

Firstly, the revelations about the early Catholic Church at the time of Jesus.

In summary, the Christian religion and its founder was driven by drugs and the abuse of young boys.

I’m going to cover this below and the evidence for it.

Secondly, how this abuse developed in the Catholic Church until around 400 AD, and the evidence that it continues covertly to this day.

I’d love to go onto that development next week, but I know there could be distracting ad hominem attacks on the academic concerned.

I discovered this from a test run on X. I put up a couple of posts, which drew the most vitriolic responses.

So I’ll focus on the ad hominem attacks next week, and then return to the more important matter of looking at the evidence for how the Catholic Church developed as a paedophile religion.

The evidence is compelling and I would say conclusive, but then I readily acknowledge I have confirmation bias.

Just as Christians will have confirmation bias in denying my ‘twisted theology’ premise.

The subject matter of their twisted theology is absolutely revolting and I found it repellent and hard to make sense of. It’s not helped by the presentation of the evidence, which leaves much to be desired. And many will also not appreciate the theatrical and eccentric nature of the presenter.

But that does not invalidate its truth

Doctor Ammon Hillman makes the case that Jesus was the leader of a drug-using paedophile cult, which became known as Christianity.

He explains his thesis in two extended podcasts with Danny Jones. Both have huge viewing figures. The first has currently 1.8 million views (actually 2.5 million when three of us watched it. This is also Wikipedia’s figure.)

The first podcast is heavily and unnecessarily censored to be on youtube.

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It focuses on Jesus being with a semi-naked boy in the Garden of Gethsemane at four o´clock in the morning. This is related in the gospels and doesn’t appear to be in any doubt.

Hillman also talks about ‘Christing’ and claims it is a drug administered through the eyes. The traditional translation is that Christ means ‘the anointed one’

It’s recognised that weird sex and drug practices were commonplace in the Ancient World. So the only real bone of contention is, were Jesus and his followers involved?

Hillman is a classicist philologist. He translates the Ancient Greek version of the New Testament and his translation is the basis of his allegations.

He is uniquely placed for his study because he also specialized in Ancient Greek and Roman medicine and pharmacy.

His revelations have not been challenged by other classicist philologists. One classicist, at least, has confirmed he is correct and I’ll put his link below.

Hillman also refers to contemporary writer Epiphanius. To quote one source on Epiphanius about the early Christians:

Jesus himself, they said, was the first teacher of these practices. He took Mary (probably Magdalene) to a mountain, took a woman out of his side and had sex with her, then drank his own sperm saying: "Thus we ought to do, that we may live." The sect even claimed that when Jesus at the Last Supper spoke of eating his flesh and drinking his blood, he was referring to this practice.

Epiphanius prayed to God, resisted the women, and freed himself from the sect. He then reported them to the bishops, who drove eighty of them from the city.

Biblical scholars have challenged Hillman, but they are not in the same academic league as he is. American bible scholars also have to sign an article of faith in God before they begin their studies. I watched Hillman’s main critic, Doctor Kipp Davis, who described Hillman as illiterate, insane and on drugs.But then I discovered Davis himself is regarded as a very poor scholar by his fellow bible scholars.

Another key critic is the youthful and popular biblical scholar Wesley Huff, who has refused to debate with Hillman.

Huff’s critique is that Hillman is applying his valid translation in invalid ways. Using the translation in different contexts and thus being ‘intellectually dishonest’.

Hillman’s response is that Huff does not read Ancient Greek, as Hillman does, fluently. Huff’s knowledge is limited. Huff claims the offensive interpretations are only in a few versions of the New Testament and relevant contemporary works. Hillman says they are everywhere.

The argument, not a face to face debate, features towards the end of the second Danny Jones podcast

at 2.12.

Hillman gets very angry and emotional about Huff, which may be understandable but was a tactical error. This does not mean his work is in error.

The perverted nature of the early Christian practices that Hillman is translating may seem wildly unlikely. But then you only have to consider some modern sexual behaviour, which can also seem equally bizarre.

And there are actually endless accounts of early Christian weird sexual behaviour. Here’s just one example:

The Euchites (Greek for “praying men”)

These fish-eaters from Edessa believed that Satan contaminated every part of a person’s body, soul and mind. The only solution to cure Lucifer’s spiritual herpes was to continually dance and drink wine all day while reciting the Lord’s Prayer. They partied like it was 999! Needless to say, the Euchites had trouble holding down jobs and were forced into begging (they were also dubbed “The Lazy Men”, for some reason). At night, they slept in parks and unwound through group shagging, swapping as many partners as they could before the sun rose.

Hillman claims that bodily fluids are an important constituent of the drugs Jesus and co. used. As additional evidence he shows an article that features ‘An ancient Egyptian mug that held psychotropic drugs, human blood and bodily fluids.’ How they are used in combination and why is above my pay grade to make sense of. Suppositories? Oral ingestion? The eyes? Hillman does elaborate, but you’ll need to listen carefully to catch it.

Below is the link to the second classicist who confirms Hillman’s translations are correct. He is also rather eccentric (perhaps it’s a hallmark of classicists). And it doesn’t help that he’s also talking about Buddha, at the same time which I found irritating and distracting.

And that’s really the problem – Hillman has this devastating and important knowledge, but he is not disseminating it in a way that will reach and be understood by ‘ordinary’ people, only a cult audience.

Hillman wearing a bishop’s mitre in the second Danny Jones podcast made me actually laugh out loud, but then I am the writer of Nemesis and Torquemada. ‘Straight’ people won’t find that funny.

Even so, an audience of 1.8 million is still a great achievement. It’s still getting the truth out there.

My interest is in how to help destroy an evil religion.

I fear this first stage of Hillman’s work doesn’t do the job. I hope I am wrong, but I suspect it may even be counterproductive. It’s a great pity because he is a courageous man, driven by the Muse to speak the truth.

He describes himself as a Ronin, fighting alone, while his fellow academics keep their heads down and say nothing because they value their jobs too much. Especially now that Catholic J.D. Vance has warned American universities that the Trump administration is gunning for them.

So it’s much easier to dismiss his findings as insane. Even though the doctrines of the Catholic Church are utterly deranged and no one who thinks for themselves could possibly believe in them.

If you think Hillman is a nutcase, wait till you read the crazy, ad hominem responses of his critics next week.

I really wish I didn’t have to dwell on them, but I feel it’s wise and it also allows me to write about the power of the Muse, which I’ve experienced myself as I relate in Pageturners.

But, to get some of the ad hominem accusations out of the way just now, I’ll mention here the story that Hillman previously taught Ancient Greek at a Catholic girls college. There he produced a hugely popular play about the Goddess Medea. This involved the players waving dildos at the audience, which included many priests. The play sounds like a scene out of The Libertine. He was subsequently dismissed, ostensibly because a student – and actor in his play – claimed Hillman visited her in her dreams. And this amounted to ‘demonic possession’. There was also his alleged stalking of another student, and the release of his second book, Original Sin, which is an excellent, well-written exposé of the reason why Catholic priests abuse children, following in the footsteps of Jesus. These too – not surprisingly – were grounds for dismissal. He was also the school janitor, because he was only a part-time lecturer and needed the extra money to bring up his kids as a single parent.

How this all came about is mind boggling. Why on Earth would Catholics employ a man like Hillman and why would he accept? And why would Catholics commission a play about the pagan Goddess Medea? Surely there is a ‘safer’ play – for Catholics – from Ancient Greece? It feels like both sides enjoyed dancing in the headlamps.

Hillman’s progress at the Catholic college would make a great ‘Dead Poet’s Society’ movie. And that’s without the other events in his colourful, sometimes tragic and dramatic life. It could happen one day, because he’s not going away, his audience is growing rapidly, and he’s putting out two podcasts a week himself. They’re very theatrical but also informative. As he acknowledges, he too is driven by the Muse. I do worry, though, that he will become so famous (or infamous), and his discoveries so threatening to the status quo, that the Establishment will find a way to destroy him. They do have previous, after all.

But all this and the ad hominem attacks are a digression from what actually matters. They also postpone my coverage of the most important part of Hillman’s research until the following week.

This research shows clearly how the Catholic Church evolved into the life-hating, body-hating, secret paedophile organisation it is today.

And he does it in a more coherent, hard-hitting, easier to follow way. I’ve read his supporting book Original Sin that spells it all out far better than his podcasts, which can be quite difficult to follow.

It showed, conclusively, to me and to other Survivors, that there is a secret twisted theology behind the Catholic Church’s crimes, as I’ve always known.

This later research is already of proven value to Survivors.

Biblical scholars and other critics can trash him all they like. He’s an easy target. But they conveniently ignore his book Original Sin, which explains to Survivors why Catholic priest abusers still behave in the way they do.

Christians, such as the numerous Biblical scholars who attack him, noticeably ignore Original Sin, because they have zero interest in the Survivors of their criminal religion. They’re never mentioned in their podcasts. They’re irrelevant, and usually denied, collateral damage.

But they are what actually matters here.

Next week: The Power of the Muse