The most extraordinary example of the Muse I’ve come across is a work by a writer – Terry – which is well worth lingering on. In the late 1980s, he wrote and sent me – in weekly instalments - an amazing document about the nature of language. When collected together the pages stood three feet high!
I asked him why he was sending it to me. He responded, ‘They told me you are meant to have it.’ I asked him why he was writing it. He said the forces he was in touch with compelled him.
He was driven.
But by whom? Who were ‘they’?
It was an astonishing work. Although he was a blue collar worker, with no further education, he demonstrated how all languages could be traced back to ancient, matriarchal Babylonian roots. I put it to the test and gave him a number of obscure first names. He effortlessly showed their early matriarchal origins without consulting a reference book. I then went to a dictionary and checked his conclusions. He was correct. Academics would have hated him and tried to dismiss his work, but he convinced me that something was driving him and endowing him with arcane knowledge. His theory reminded me somewhat of Snow Crash by Neal Stephenson, which, if I recall correctly, suggested language is a virus that originated in ancient Babylon and is used to control us. Specifically, that religion is the neurological equivalent of a virus.
That’s the patriarchal conclusion about language. On the matriarchal side there is The White Goddess by Robert Graves (actually plagiarised from Graves’ girlfriend, according to Wikipedia). This suggested that language was originally poetic, a language of emotion to celebrate the Goddess. The language of the Muse. I quote Graves’ findings in the afterword to Sláine: The Horned God. Graves doesn’t make as clear a case for the matriarchal roots of language as I would like, but perhaps that’s because he ripped the idea off.
What made Terry’s work more problematic was that it was often written in a ‘circular’ style. He talked around the subject, rather than writing in the linear, narrative way we are used to. If you watch Ammon Hillman’s Lady Babylon podcasts, they too are circular rather than linear, as he freely admits. I find them difficult to watch for this reason, although he has a dedicated audience. Because we are mentally trained to follow a linear line of thought, anything else is hard work and is certainly unpublishable. But perhaps it was once an alternative method of communication. I certainly wouldn’t dismiss it out of hand just because it doesn’t suit a modern perspective. Various ancient books on alchemy – including Isaac Newton’s – are written in similar inaccessible styles.
I’ve included a single page of Terry’s work below so you can see what I’m referring to.
Terry often quotes John Allegro, who wrote about the drug-taking of early Christian Gnostics, but he looks at other sources as well. Reading his pages today, I still feel he was inspired to delve into the origin of languages by some external force.
It’s worth noting that he wrote it in the late 1980s on a typewriter, adding hand-written lettering from early ancient alphabets. An astonishing achievement.
Language changes rapidly, but yet he was completely at ease with its complexities. To underline how rapidly such changes can occur, look at the map below. It’s from a Polish map used by Polish pilots in World War Two to help familiarise themselves with English locations. It occurred to me that invaders of a country would bring about such changes in language very rapidly. So within one generation, the way place names were written would become barely recognisable.
Terry’s work would have been an obscure curio, an unpublishable cultural cul-de-sac, but for where it led to next.
I stayed with it as Terry sent me more and more pages of his magnum opus.
Gradually, he talked about the forces that were motivating him to produce this extraordinary work, which I still have. It transpired they were UFOs which he described as ‘beautiful ships’, observed close-up by himself, his family, and some close friends.
I was sceptical. Most of us dismiss UFO watchers as deluded, and I was inclined to forget all about Terry and his strange, esoteric meisterwerk.
But he persisted in sending me more and more pages and then invited me to actually come and see the UFOs. Perhaps that would change my mind about them. He gave the strong impression that they would appear to order. It seemed most unlikely, but I had to put it to the test.
So I duly visited Terry’s city, met his wife, kids and friends, (all lovely, kind, warm and normal people) and we went out to see the UFOs one winter afternoon in the hills above his city. To my surprise they actually turned up, just as Terry predicted. I’ve written about what happened in detail in Pageturners and elsewhere, so I won’t give a full account here. Suffice to say, to my surprise, they were ‘biological’ rather than the impressive ships of Spielberg’s CE3K that I was expecting. What I saw was more like an embryo or a jellyfish (without the tentacles) than anything else. Certainly not a ‘beautiful ship’ and I was rather disappointed. But I had the strong feeling that I was affected differently by the UFOs. We were seeing two very different things. I believe that what I saw was closer to their reality, rather than the illusions shown to Terry and his followers. Possibly if we were Catholics, we might have seen a BVM (Blessed Virgin Mary), waiting to mislead the gullible. You can tell from my tone how cynical and suspicious I was, even back then. The Cosmic Pulse of Life by Trevor James Constable has photos which roughly equate to what I saw.
I duly returned home and I still treasure my daughters’ responses. One daughter said ‘Can I come with you next time?’ I replied there wasn’t going to be a next time. Whatever these creatures were, I didn’t regard them as positive or worth contacting. I didn’t want them in my life. Or my family’s. The other said, ‘Have the police been informed?’ So, as you can see, there are no UFO lovers in the Mills’ household!
The bottom line where UFOs are concerned is they are a waste of space. They have never improved the quality of life of humanity, so they can fuck off. They are for people who are looking for saviours. And there is always a catch. As if Christianity hasn’t caused the world enough problems with its lying offers of salvation. We are fully capable of taking responsibility for our own lives and saving ourselves. Consequently, I despise all messiahs, gurus, priests, bishops, popes, and other self-appointed enemies of freedom who seek to impose their ‘holy’ will on us.
I believe the UFOs are part of a diverse and complex cosmology. Whether they are from inner or outer space, who cares? Whether we call them the Nephilim, the Anunnaki, demons, angels, Cythrons (my name for them in Sláine), the Newts (the traditional pagan name for them, used in Finn), or the Archons (the current Gnostic name I use to describe them), they all amount to the same thing: they are intruders from another realm who have harmed and continue to harm humanity, often, but not exclusively, through the limitless forms that their Shadow Religion takes.
The only certainty about the Archons is that they lie.
My theory is that Terry was genuinely driven by the Muse, but somehow the Archons infiltrated what he was doing and took it over. Alternatively, they originated it and inspired him. Christianity endlessly warns us of the duplicity and numerous disguises of Satan, never, of course, applying it to their holyselves. Double-agents are commonplace in our world and I guess it’s the same in the world of the esoteric. Why they should bother with me, fuck knows. Is what I’m writing so important? Do they really need to get me ‘on side’ and turn me into a true believer? Fat chance. It makes me irritable just thinking about them.
Here’s the view of John Lash about the Archons and UFOs, from his book Not In His Image. Lash is the leading authority on the meaning of the ancient texts of the Gnostics and especially what they have to say about the Archons.
The Dead Sea Scrolls describe first hand contact with alien-type beings,‘Close Encounters of the Fourth Kind’.
Gnostics explicitly warned that the Archons worked through salvationist religions (Patriarchy) to deviate us from our proper course of evolution, our share in Sophia’s Correction (Matriarchy). They do this, Gnostics claimed, because they envy us. Archons lack both epinoia (moral-creative imagination) and they want to have this specific endowment of ours, to assimilate or steal it.
They are messengers of deception because they do not inform us of their true nature. Nothing any ET has ever said had added one iota to the sum of human knowledge or offered one single insight that human beings could not produce out of their own resources…. Archons lie by omission, never coming out to reveal what they truly are. The proof of their malevolence is their refusal to explain themselves in clear and honest terms. They take advantage of human credulity by appearing to be enigmatic.
I would say that dovetails with and explains my Close Encounter with the Archons. Salvation has always disgusted me – even as a young child brought up in that most evil and Archontic of religions, the Catholic Church. I can remember clearly going to a special Catholic showing of the film The Prisoner (1955). As a seven-year-old, I was overjoyed to see a fictional view of the Archontic Cardinal Mindszenty imprisoned, tortured and executed by the equally Archontic Communists. Catholics came out from seeing the film with sad and sombre expressions at the tragic end of this ‘saintly’ man, but I was elated! Naturally I knew I had to keep such inappropriate feelings to myself. I can still feel that boy’s excitement to this day. I guess I had to experience the Archontic religion, up close and personal, in order to know how to repel, confront and expose it.
So repudiating Terry’s UFO experience came quite effortlessly to me. Similarly, it explains my intense hatred of salvationist superheroes, which goes far deeper than the relatively guarded hatred I express for them in Marshal Law. But what else can anyone feel but intense hatred for such Archontic fakes who have sullied and debased the meaning of the word ‘hero’. They are not a harmless kids’ fantasy. They are Archontic propaganda.
Lash’s book is a dense read, but I thoroughly recommend it. However, I don’t recall him saying clearly what needs to be said.
In the battle between the Matriarchy and the Patriarchy, the Archons have won.
Their mindset dominates our world.
Our rulers – politicians, military, clerics, tycoons, the purveyors of science, culture, media, education, history, are all Archontic and their negative impact on humanity can be seen all around us.
If you consider any of our Archontic leaders, they all lack epinoia: moral-creative imagination. The power of the Muse.
Blair? Trump? Starmer? The Popes? WW1 General Haig? Bezos? Musk? I can’t think of one who has epinoia. They are all dead inside – and sometimes feel dead outside, too.
The Matriarchy and the Muse and what they stand for still has a subservient place in our world, because without imagination the Patriarchy is an empty vessel. But it must still subsist in a limited and heavily controlled context, often providing a veneer of creativity to make the Archontic Patriarchy palatable to us.
But if I and others are driven by the Muse, then what of those who are driven by the Archons? How does that work? Did they have a visitation or a Close Encounter like Terry? Was it the influence of the Archontic world they were born into? Or are they just born that way? Just as I’m certain I was born on the other side of the divide.
Thanks. I think my venom stems from the way my fellow UFO watchers seemed besotted by them. Probably giving them a feeling of pleasure - 'beads for the natives' . I could vaguely sense it, but I was so hostile to them, it barely registered
Definitely. I hadn't realised that Star Trek had an episode first talking about the prime directive called 'Return of the Archons'